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Thursday, March 15, 2007
i'm apprehensive of what's to come next week. results and all. will i be disappointed and discontented when i get them back? after all, i studied real hard. and by real hard, i mean real hard. but not to the extent of a muggers point of view whereby 'real hard' means memorising everything in the notes. i know i studied hard because this is (hopefully was) the first (hopefully last) time when i had all the symptoms of stress. even though i kept on denying to my parents about feeling stressed (i deluded myself into thinking i didn't have it too), the symptoms gave it all away. nose-bleeds, heart palpitations, heart/chest pain, difficulty in breathing, et cetera.i feared for my life cause when i was in delusion, thoughts of dying early due to a sudden 'heart attack' appeared. reading the newspapers about the sudden surge of people dying due to these 'heart attacks' even though they have had a clean medical record. and yes, i thought that perharps they experienced those minor attacks (would angina suffice?) and kept it all to themselves. hence, nobody knew what the real cause was, cause they didn't live to tell their tale.
i felt that i was studying my life away. literally scraping pieces of flesh off me everytime i buried my nose into my notes. it was tough studying this hard for, as what i call it, a pathetic common test.
this fear of not improving from last year's common test and promos just grips my heart.
please God, stay with me.
hehe. on a lighter note, happy belated birthday jiahao! from your tag, i can see that you like the present very much! :poh yes, i haven't been replying my tags! so sorry! i shall do it now-right from where i left it. anyway, does my tagboard really have a problem? on firefox, i only can't see where to write the tag. but you can navigate it. its just beside the post button. on ie, i only can't see where the post button is. haha, just keep on clicking on the space beside the tag box and hopefully it'll be posted! (:
tag replies;
soph: hey thanks alot for everything! whoever the sexy loser is...
luan: thanks for your well-wishes! i'm really glad we won talentime! (:
nat: hmm, it seems as if we do't know each other already...
sam: hey i hope cts were fine for you! i'm glad that its all over!
jiahao: wah, you post alot lehhhh. i reply one by one la, since i'm your nice SL. hahaha. [pause] oh i shall only reply the most recent one. hahaha. yes. very long, very long. thanks!
claudia: hahaha. hello!
haha. i feel bad having to reply to stuff way back during orientation. haha. oops.
have a good day everyone! (:
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