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Sunday, December 31, 2006
church camp rocked! (:BLESSED IN JESUS! matt 5:3-10
what a good way to end the year. it would have been a better ending if i'd went for omega night, but i'm not ready to have a public reflection for the year. cause i'll be lying through my teeth if i said that my year was 'happy'. no, i didn't have a good year. i'd consider those months good, but examining it closer, perharps 'lousy' would be a much better word. what a mess did i get into, what shitsu happened...
anyway, my resolution would be to walk closer with God, cause he lifted my every burden.
2007 is approaching in less than a hour. are you ready for the new year? Odyssey awaits me.
i needed some time to be alone, so sorry choir peeps, who are watching the fireworks at the esplanade now!
But it goes against the way I am,
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do;
'Cause when those trials come,
My human nature shouts the thing to do,
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.
thank you Lord.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
con·tent 
/kənˈtɛnt/ [kuhn-tent]
–adjective
satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.
am i?
Monday, December 25, 2006
A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!
haha, i just came back from her house. her party was so fun! cause bridge was played! nah, haha. thanks for the party! (: soph, you were missed. get better soon!
my church service was yesterday and the usual from my class went out after that. we decided to watch 'a night in the mueseum'. thanks yinling for the treat! (: i think the item that we performed was ok. just that people told me that they couldn't hear me. hmm. how could that be? must be the mics. hahaha.
anyway, for the carolling today at sheraton, forgetful me did not have my blazer cause i had left it at gallery hotel. thanks xq for helping me to bring it to the choir store. but i didn't have it. so, thanks hg for coming down to pass it to me! had lunch with my parents (they came to support me!) at newton food centre (the place where you said you'll treat me) then i went home to prepare for the party.
Christmas didn't even feel like Christmas. maybe because i didn't go to town? nah. Jesus said that he would be coming to earth when everything is going on as usual - when marriages, parties, sleep, baths etc are going on. so Christmas was fun! (:
thanks everyone for the fabulous presents! maybe shoutouts another day? cause there's ogl camp tomorrow and i'm going to be a zombie if i don't sleep now. (i've got to reach school by 7am) freak.
bye!
i'll pretend nothing happened
and yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORD JESUS.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
this hit me."to those people who are against homosexuals, and crack jokes about 'dykes' and 'gay fags'. please stop and think for a moment about the daily torture these people go through. they can't tell their parents because they'll disappoint them. they can't tell their friends because they'll lose them. they can never tell their bosses or their religious leaders, because they will be fired or ex-communicated, cut off from the community as though they had a contagious disease. how is that fair? how is that Christian?
and worst of all, for the homosexual who believes in God: the God who made them, is supposedly now the God that damns them. the God they love is the God who curses them to hell, to eternal death. do you think for even a moment that they want that?"
it sounds damn right.
anyway, tag replies;
jen; oh. i meant that at night, that coridoor is dark and scary. haha. i've heck care-d many many times already.
char; yeah! mco party rocked! thankss!!
roman; hey i am usually but there are exceptions.. haha. merry christmas too!
stella; sigh, i think i was pms-ing so i said that. don't take it to heart.
nat; thanks for the party!
luan; hahaha! yeah i loved standing next to you too! (: seeya on christmas!
roy; yes they make us stronger!!! see you too!
hilary; heyyy! you're back in singapore? hahaha. if you're referring to what's on the right panel, that's in 2007! haha. see you in church tml!! (:
i just came back from the mco christmas party at soe's house!!! i'm so glad i went, cause i could not make it initially, so i rushed there after my grandad's birthday party. the fingerfood was good and so was the island creamery dessert!!! ok, i'm feeling abit high now. hahaha. then there was presents exchange! my favourite part! haha. thanks everyone for the lovely presents!!! ((((: i feel so blessed to have so many friends in class. i think God paved the way for us to be in the same class, and i really thank Him for that. appreciate appreciate appreciate.
phpps meeting tml with mr michael chan. need to wake up early. argh.
goodnight everyone.
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the 'girl' that you want
'She' was tearing us apart
Cause 'she's' everything
Everything I'm not
Saturday, December 23, 2006
the events that happened just forces me to go closer with God. and i find that i really really need him in times of these trials. i've struggled with it again and again, but this time, it feels different, perharps due to the stuff that went on. my relationship with God has always been the basic and comfortable one. He's always there when i need him and i can go to Him in times of trouble. mankind is like that. we're sinful my nature. you do not know how to treasure something until something bad happens - i think some chinese idiom says something like that. hence, i'm sure every Christian has experienced this - ignoring God when you're living a life of bliss, and going back to Him when you are having difficulty with your life. as i mentioned earlier, i'm at a comfortable level with God. i don't think i've been through crossing my comfort zone because i think i'm not up to that level yet. when i read a cell group's blog, i shudder at the thought of learning what they are learning because i think its too intellectual for the people of their age.i guess i'm still a baby, in the spiritual sense. i yearn to be closer to Him but there are just so many things in this world that keeps me drifted away. things that i ponder on for so long, and try and try and try to make things right, but to no avail. i may pray with all my might and strength. Lord, is this really not for me? my dad used to say that everything would be according to His own perfect timing. i'm still blurry on what happened because everything seemed to blank me out. i just want to make things the way it was.
on a lighter note (were the above paragraphs heavy? haha), i learnt how to kayak properly and not puke (argh, horrors of the sec 4 council camp gave me a phobia on kayaking), or maybe it was just the sturdiness of the person behind me. and, hmm, 1 star? haha. plus, carolling session today and the outing rocked, except for the fact that i came down with a flu and couldn't emcee.
oh yes, the carolling session at amk hospital warmed my heart. it really gave me great satisfaction to sing and to see everybody enjoy and appreciate it. thumbs up to luan for organising this! (:
Friends always show their love.
What are brothers for if not to share troubles?
Proverbs 17:17
Monday, December 18, 2006
i didn't know being a church camp group leader was going to be so serious! sigh. i've got a feeling i won't enjoy the camp at all. being allocated to someone isn't really that exciting. second service is going through some changes too. i am not looking forward to it at all. more responsibilities and more work. i just feel like leaving...things always start to change before the new year.
the only thing i enjoy now is carolling. yes, with the choir. i guess i'm really bonded with them now. anyway, i haven't seen my classmates for 2 whole months, so yeah, things change.
sec 4 class chalet? hmm. i don't wanna go there and look like a mugger. after all, i'm in an 'uncool' jc, even though i may be proud of it. i've thought about it for a while, and i guess i wouldn't want to meet any of my classmates. the first i hear from their mouths are: "how is nj", and i would have to say what i always say. the usual response? "yes, i love it there!" yes, i really do love it. but compared to them, maybe they're better off. its really the ac culture. something that fairfield had, which i lost after being in nj for 1 year. i see them all happy and dressing up and going out most of the time, which was what i did in fairfield. but for me, that "magic" is all gone.
all gone. hence i say, lead a new life linus.
sorry for being melancholic and most importantly, a humbug. after all, christmas is in 6 days. i dare say, church dampens the mood of christmas. i feel pressurised, which isn't good at all.
i pledge no allegiance.
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone
Friday, December 15, 2006
Give everyone what you owe him,if respect, then respect;
if honor then honor.
Romans 13:7
Pulau Tinggi was enchanting and charming. alluring to a certain extent. but it was all a facade. deep within the jungle lurked the perilous track of cliffs, vines, and branches. urgh! walked through mangrove swamps and sharp rocks along the perimeter of the island. my poor feet ached tremendously after that. well, all in all, it was a good learning experience. jusco was only 1h and we couldn't really do much. and boy, i thought that there were loads of free time. only to realise that it was only that 1 hour that we had free. the rest was on the bus-you call that free? but one thing i appreciate the bus ride for, was that i learnt how to play bridge! haha. ironic isn't it? building a bridge, and learning how to play bridge. ok, its lame. haha.
photos are up!
06s07 +mc-o! alee, me, ben and yuyan!
1/4 group.
mine's and ben's shoes. we just left it there without giving them a decent burial. oh well, mud, sand, swampy+mangrove+sea water. :x
ben me and alee on the deck of the boat!
wind.
messy bedroom
the scary un-lit corridoor at night
huts of the resort.
the powder-sand beach which all of us wanted to build sandcastles on! we wanted to stay there all day, but "time" did not "permit".Thursday, December 14, 2006
guess where this is?
haha. its actually the last kampong in singapore. looks like malaysia eh? haha. i went there to explore with my parents. i went to the zoo too! (:
orang utans line up the tree! its damn cute.
they look like humans.ciao!
Saturday, December 09, 2006
just returned home from SLO's ALL THAT JAZZ. it was a great experience and exposure! too bad i'm not performing tomorrow, cause i'm going......
to the land of jusco's! hahaha. cip in malaysia to build a bridge. it's going to be quite slack i think. cause we're even going to the new jusco. haha. i just went there 2 weeks ago. i'll be there from friday to monday. my phone will still be on, so if there's anything, just contact me. goodbye everyone! (:
light the fire again...Thursday, December 07, 2006
tag replies;zee; hey, take care in korea! have loads of fun!
junqi; hi! having fun?
yujia; thanks! i will and already am! hahahahaha. anyway, i can't wait for the Christmas party!
rachel; yoohoo! it'll be 1st 3 months again next year!
luan; haha, that happened before. but i revived it! YES DEATH TO KBK!! PLEASE DON'T EVER COME BACK.
jiahao; thanks! jiayou!
jensen; why you go back malaysia!!!!!!!! hahaha. i miss you lol!
wanling; hi! is choir fun?
yuehhsin; ok, at least for the time being, there isn't much to settle for the walk-in com. the changes are cancelled, thank goodness!
stella; yes i haven't spoken to you! anyway, we'll being seeing each other 3d 2n!
Christmas is coming, the geese are getting fat............
bye roman!!! see you next year! (:
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
soe's in camp.charleen and julian's in boston.
yuehhsin's going to taiwan.
and the rest are busy.
and now there's going to be a change in the script.
it'll just be the death of me.
i think grad night was ecstatic. well, maybe for me, cause its not really my grad night, and i was with seniors. people whom i always feel comfortable with. it has always been that way ever since secondary school. and when its my turn to become the senior batch, there will always be that feeling of emptiness. it also hurts to have people leave.
anyway, back to grad night. haha. i wasn't part of it, but courtesy of dorea, i had free food. it was held at the exact same place where i had my founder's day dinner a few months ago, but somehow the food tasted better. probably because the poor performers only had cai4 fan4 from the canteen stall. the dishes were exactly the same from what i had during the choir camp 2 days ago, so i totally lost my appetite. thus, lousy hotel food=appealing + appetising.
negativ performed well. i'm proud of what we've had done so far. and kudos to everyone cause we were so tired after singing for 12 hours everyday for the past week. bye zr!
cocolatte's performance was ok. but i guess we were not ready to perform at that kind of place yet. plus, i don't think i'm suited for it. we left after performing cause i think the atmosphere was a bit overbearing.
we went to liang court's 24h macs from 2-4am. and we were all freaked out by what we saw. the place was swarming with gays. i found it really really disgusting. zr xq and xy who were touching each other really didn't help. yours truly was one for their victims. and when cil came, there was this sense of relief. i wonder why too. haha. maybe because he was bigger than us.
stayed at gallery hotel until 12, then i left with soph. hmm. my internal clock has gone all haywire and my resistance level, i presume, has gone down. its time for viruses to attack!
i don't think i'll have any energy left to type about the choir camp. but overall, i had fun! the com rocked! i'm becoming closer to my batch so its a comforting thing.
i still need my moments of oblivion.
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